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坂本龍馬 sakamoto ryouma ([personal profile] kaientai) wrote2022-03-04 10:08 am
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heretic_blade: (you pray so hard)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-16 04:25 am (UTC)(link)
Shut up...Anyway, ya gotta minute? I jus'...wanna see ya for a bit.

[ It doesn't have to be long. The whole mess rattled Izō pretty badly; he just wants to see the people he cares about. ]
heretic_blade: (I am looking out for you)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-18 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
Don't get all soft on me now...I'm comin' over. Got somethin' we can share.

[ It's not good, by any means, but it exists and it is capable of getting them drunk, so it's fine. ]

Better not be this soft when I get over there.

[ Because he can't handle it in person. It's bad enough over the phone. ]
heretic_blade: (across a ragged tongue)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-18 05:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō comes by not long later, a bottle of cheap sake in hand. It's good that he also lives like an animal except with someone else, so the state of Ryouma's apartment can't be that bad. ]

Ya better not make me regret comin' by.
heretic_blade: (on bloody knees)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-19 04:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ If it weren't for the state of Izō's own apartment, he'd be judging the fuck out of Ryouma. He's impressed it isn't worse, honestly. ]

Is it? [ He shoves the bottle into Ryouma's hand. ] Don't fuckin' lie...Ya look like shit.

[ Like Izō doesn't. Karasu spent a lot of time in control and that took a lot out of him. ]
heretic_blade: (and burn through the witches)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-22 06:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He practically throws himself down by the table with a sigh. This night can only go up from here, right? It's not like Ryouma favoring one arm went unnoticed, either. Here he is, useless as ever and unable to protect the people he cares about. ]

Ya went and get yerself hurt, didn't ya? ...Idiot.

[ The solution is to be a pain in the ass, of course. ]
heretic_blade: (spreading from the fool)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-23 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ He feels awful about all of this. He'd been so useless the whole night, the only person he'd helped was Hizen and even that didn't feel like enough. How useless was he that he couldn't protect the people he cared about? He shut down in the panic and Karasu took over because he couldn't handle it.

And now Ryouma is acting like this isn't a big deal. It's taking all of his strength to keep the tears at bay. He's so tired and exhausted and stretched thin. The sake burns worse than the tears stinging his eyes and he likes it that way. ]


Yer gonna get yerself killed, ya idiot! Then where's that gonna leave me, huh?! I jus' get t' see ya again an' then yer gone! [ Where the fuck is this anger coming from? It surprises even him with the intensity. He doesn't have the excuse of being drunk for his tears. ] Don't be so fuckin' reckless!

[ And then weaker as he wipes at his eyes in shame. ]

...Don't fuckin' leave me again.
heretic_blade: (they kill)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-23 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The hug is a surprise and an unwelcome one at that. Izō wants to be pissed off at him, not feeling so conflicted like he is right now. His body stiffens up, resisting the urge give in. That lasts all of five seconds, though, as he hugs Ryouma tightly. That doesn't mean it comes without further token resistance in the form of a few weak hits against Ryouma's back. ]

...Ya can't keep that promise. [ Weakly muttered into the crook of Ryouma's neck. ] Ya know that...

[ That doesn't mean he won't cling to it like his life depends on it. ]
heretic_blade: (i can see)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-24 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō will allow it for awhile longer because it's comforting. On some level, he knows Ryouma's lonely. Part of him was ripped away when he came here. He can't even begin to imagine how much that hurts. Oryou's absence is like a gaping hole. Izō, on the other hand, has a boyfriend and a girlfriend, people he can turn to when he needs their help and comfort. He's a poor substitute for Oryou, but if it helps Ryouma, he'll continue to be that poor substitute. ]

...Don't matter what I say now. Ya made up yer mind. [ For better or worse. ] If ya break that promise, I'll kill ya...

[ But for now, he just wants to cling to Ryouma like a life preserver in the deep water. Something real to cling to. ]
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heretic_blade: (i feel so numb yeah)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-27 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō settles down after a few more moments of them holding each other. Now comes the time for him to be fussy again. He backs away, wiping at his eyes. ]

Ain't got it in me t' hurt ya right now...Thank yer lucky stars for that. [ And another gentle punch in the ribs. ] Idiot.
heretic_blade: (come on play the game)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-27 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
...Th' fuck happened, anyway? An' don't try to downplay it. Tell it to me straight.

[ The look Izō gives him says he's serious about that. ]
heretic_blade: (cause i don't wanna dream)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-04-30 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ryouma's story sounds about right. Sticking his neck out trying to help out his clan...

Izō sits in sulky silence for a bit. He should be grateful it wasn't worse, but he's just angry. It's misplaced anger, of course, but that doesn't mean he's not going to vent it. ]


An' yer jus' gonna do it again when somethin' else like this goes down! How long 'til ya fuckin' die, huh? [ They're treading the same ground. It always comes back to this. ] Jus' think for a minute before ya do shit...

[ Rich coming from Izō. ]
heretic_blade: (when you gotta connect)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-05-06 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
...Don't matter to me none if it's real or not.

[ Not that he's going to discuss what his contract deal is. That's his business alone. Izō just...drinks instead of thinking too much. ]

An' d'ya think yer actually gonna use it when ya need to? Or are ya gonna hesitate?
heretic_blade: (on bloody knees)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-05-06 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
What's it matter what I want? I'm doin' what I'm supposed to...I got people t' take care of. What I want don't matter.

[ What matters is taking care of Majima and Emily first...And Ryouma and Hizen and Six. His own needs are forever secondary. ]

Ya killed someone with it? Huh?

[ Is he getting aggressive to get the attention off himself? Maybe. ]

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