[ it comes out too rushed and too desperate and it's followed almost at once by a hot wash of shame. this isn't what he wanted. this is why he doesn't talk about himself. ]
M'sorry, Izō... I want ya t'stay. Please..? I'll talk about somethin' else. Anythin' y' want...
[ he's mostly kept staring down at the floor all this time but now he does his best to offer a smile, even if it's far from his best. attempts were made. ]
Pissed Hizen off once gettin' like that too. Think I'd know better, huh?
[ There's something so pathetic about Ryouma's behavior that it makes him angry. The anger settles down into...pity is the wrong word for it. Izō isn't quite sure what he's feeling. A mixture of guilt and irritation made worse by how drunk he is. ]
...Shut up. I'll stay. [ He slowly sits back down with an annoyed grunt. ] ...Too drunk t' walk home, anyway.
Now I know I'm in trouble if you're the one tellin' me t' quit drinkin'...
[ it's funny but he also has been drinking more tonight than he usually does, for obvious reasons. this also doesn't deter him from making sure the remainder of what's in his cup doesn't go to waste but then that's that.
ryouma goes to get up which amounts to him almost immediately sitting back down again because thanks to all that sake his legs are a little slow to get the memo that he actually wants to use them now. it's fine. ]
[ Muttered as he wanders off in the direction of Ryouma's futon so he can flop down on it face first and take up most of the space. Have fun moving him. ]
Aw, ya know I've never been able t' keep up with ya for real.
[ he's trying!! even if this is arguably not something he should really be aspiring to do better on, at least in the direction where he drinks more. in any case, he makes his way over one way or another. he doesn't move izō mostly because trying to coordinate himself to do that right now is debatable at best and because he wants to be close to izō anyway. ryouma is content to end up somewhere half on what's left of the futon and half draped on top of izō. ]
[ Izō grumbles something and shifts so they're both in a more comfortable position. "More comfortable", in this case, means he latches onto Ryouma like he's a body pillow. Warm and familiar to hug and it helps soothe the worry he had about Ryouma's safety.
It's a bandaid on the gaping wound that is their complicated relationship at the moment, but one he'll gladly take. ]
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
[ it comes out too rushed and too desperate and it's followed almost at once by a hot wash of shame. this isn't what he wanted. this is why he doesn't talk about himself. ]
M'sorry, Izō... I want ya t'stay. Please..? I'll talk about somethin' else. Anythin' y' want...
[ he's mostly kept staring down at the floor all this time but now he does his best to offer a smile, even if it's far from his best. attempts were made. ]
Pissed Hizen off once gettin' like that too. Think I'd know better, huh?
no subject
...Shut up. I'll stay. [ He slowly sits back down with an annoyed grunt. ] ...Too drunk t' walk home, anyway.
no subject
[ despite being told to shut up, ryouma can't not say it, imposing on izō like he is. he says it quietly, at least. ]
I know it's not much, but make yourself at home.
[ mostly it's an open invitation to drink his drinks and eat his food and sleep on his futon. ]
Someday soon I'll get something better.
no subject
[ Yes, that's an invitation to come cuddle with him. It'll settle them both down, surely. ]
no subject
[ it's funny but he also has been drinking more tonight than he usually does, for obvious reasons. this also doesn't deter him from making sure the remainder of what's in his cup doesn't go to waste but then that's that.
ryouma goes to get up which amounts to him almost immediately sitting back down again because thanks to all that sake his legs are a little slow to get the memo that he actually wants to use them now. it's fine. ]
I will. I'm comin'. In a minute..?
no subject
[ Muttered as he wanders off in the direction of Ryouma's futon so he can flop down on it face first and take up most of the space. Have fun moving him. ]
no subject
[ he's trying!! even if this is arguably not something he should really be aspiring to do better on, at least in the direction where he drinks more. in any case, he makes his way over one way or another. he doesn't move izō mostly because trying to coordinate himself to do that right now is debatable at best and because he wants to be close to izō anyway. ryouma is content to end up somewhere half on what's left of the futon and half draped on top of izō. ]
S' better.
no subject
It's a bandaid on the gaping wound that is their complicated relationship at the moment, but one he'll gladly take. ]
...Now shut up for once in yer fuckin' life.