( ... Dammit. This is gonna mean she can't come for Ryouma about his reckless behaviour now, isn't it? She scowls at everything he says, at the words and the general fact that she can't have the best of both worlds. She can't turn back time and decide to not kiss Shin at the festival.
It would erase weeks of good times, but god it would be easier than the ache in her chest that refuses to lessen right now. )
I were good at that. ( Not getting close to anyone. ) Back home.
( She'd like to know why the people in Jigokucho make that so much harder, thanks. )
[ if he can't offer advice, then he can do what his teachers used to do for him and ask questions that made him think. he expects that to be about as well-received as when it was done to him (which is to say, he did a lot of whining). ]
A'ight, well, I'd say it must be real complicated then...
[ ryouma doesn't look like he's saying it just to throw something in her face, at least. he's very sympathetic about this for reasons he's not willing to let on about just yet. ]
But if ya weren't happy before an' ya ain't happy about it now, what's the use in fightin' it? Maybe ya oughta enjoy it while ya can.
( Because being happy is how you get hurt. ...Though, to be fair, she was miserable throughout the last four years of school and she got plenty hurt then, so maybe that thesis is shaky. )
Ugh... ( She presses the heels of her hands into her eyes as she groans. This is all so needlessly complicated. The part of herself which just wants to be left alone to self-implode grinds up against the girl who's actually been happy here, despite her better judgement.
The question that spills out of her is asked so quietly that Ryouma would be forgiven if he didn't hear it; )
... What if I'm wrong?
( About Shin. About Ryouma. About literally anyone here she's begun to categorise as not that bad.
What if she puts all this effort into repairing this rift and she's wrong, and she gets hurt? )
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It would erase weeks of good times, but god it would be easier than the ache in her chest that refuses to lessen right now. )
I were good at that. ( Not getting close to anyone. ) Back home.
( She'd like to know why the people in Jigokucho make that so much harder, thanks. )
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[ if he can't offer advice, then he can do what his teachers used to do for him and ask questions that made him think. he expects that to be about as well-received as when it was done to him (which is to say, he did a lot of whining). ]
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What d'you think?
( Do you think she'd be here, hungover and upset that someone is concerned about her if she'd been happy? )
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[ ryouma doesn't look like he's saying it just to throw something in her face, at least. he's very sympathetic about this for reasons he's not willing to let on about just yet. ]
But if ya weren't happy before an' ya ain't happy about it now, what's the use in fightin' it? Maybe ya oughta enjoy it while ya can.
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Ugh... ( She presses the heels of her hands into her eyes as she groans. This is all so needlessly complicated. The part of herself which just wants to be left alone to self-implode grinds up against the girl who's actually been happy here, despite her better judgement.
The question that spills out of her is asked so quietly that Ryouma would be forgiven if he didn't hear it; )
... What if I'm wrong?
( About Shin. About Ryouma. About literally anyone here she's begun to categorise as not that bad.
What if she puts all this effort into repairing this rift and she's wrong, and she gets hurt? )