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坂本龍馬 sakamoto ryouma ([personal profile] kaientai) wrote2022-03-04 10:08 am
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heretic_blade: (I am looking out for you)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-05 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ At least it shut him up for a moment. ]

Nah, I didn't know that. I died before ya did, ya know? Don't know shit after that.
heretic_blade: (dead i am the pool)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-05 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ The life of a Servant is a cruel one. Summoned long after their deaths with all of the regrets and trauma they died with. Being expected to just casually consider their own deaths.

Izō snorts. ]


I'm surprised ya got yer shit together enough t' do that...Guess ya got real busy with yer big idea an' all.
heretic_blade: (across a ragged tongue)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-07 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
Ya always were good at draggin' people into what ya believed in...Don't think anyone that weren't a ronin was gonna go along with ya.

[ He shrugs. ]

Shit's diff'rent when ya got nothin' t' lose.
heretic_blade: (I am looking out for you)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-07 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ Quiet.

Quiet.

He shouldn't ask. He has to know, though. ]


...How'd it end? How much longer did ya stay alive?

[ Izō feels like he knows the answer: not long. A lot of people wanted Ryouma dead, so how long did he avoid meeting his untimely end? ]
heretic_blade: (full possession of a memory)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-08 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
How?

[ How'd it happen? Izō knows the answer is assassination, but how could it happen to a trained swordsman like Ryouma? How the hell was he caught so unaware as to get himself killed?

How different would things have gone if Izō had been there to protect him? ]
heretic_blade: (i can see)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-08 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's better he knows, he tells himself.

It doesn't make him feel any better. Izō scowls and stares at the floor. His anger is impotent. It feels like a knife is twisting in his chest. Sheer force of will is the only reason he isn't crying right now. ]


...Shoulda taken me with ya.
heretic_blade: (watching angels cry)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-17 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh.

Uh.

How does he deal with this? Izō swallows hard, sitting stiffly in Ryouma's embrace. Him crying when they were kids was a given. As an adult? It's harder to deal with.

Much harder.

He eventually returns the embrace, letting Ryouma cry it out as long as he needs to. ]


...How long ya been holdin' on t' this?

[ An idle thought spoken aloud. ]
heretic_blade: (they kill)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-21 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō does allow it, if only because he needs it after what Ryouma says. It doesn't feel good to know that. Numbness settles in as he stares ahead. All of the hurt he'd been holding onto felt pointless now...

What if things had gone differently? How different would their lives had been? ]


...Me dyin' hurt ya that much?

[ Why would it? Why should it? ]
heretic_blade: (full possession of a memory)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-21 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ Hearing this doesn't help anything. Izō lets go so he can sit back and stare at the floor. What should he do with this information? It's so complicated...

He doesn't say anything, not for a long time. ]


...Better that ya didn't come back.
heretic_blade: (I am looking out for you)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-21 04:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ They're both going to keep spiraling if this keeps up. He leans in to gently kiss Ryouma. It should shut him up for a moment. ]

...Well, I ain't gonna stop comin' 'round. So get used t' it.

heretic_blade: (what have i done)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-22 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō puts his hand over Ryouma's face and shoves him back. ]

Yer fuckin' drunk, dumbass... [ He sighs as he settles back. ] Should prolly get my ass gone before it gets too late.
heretic_blade: (try to catch him in the woods)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-23 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō stares at him long and hard. Is he being serious right now? It's hard to tell. Defining their relationship at all is ... difficult. It's not like his little group tells each other of the ins and outs of their particulars, just who they can expect to see around. That's just the way they do things.

He's drunk enough that he will answer the question instead of telling Ryouma to get bent instead. ]


Yer a fuckbuddy. Friend with benefits. [ He shrugs. ] A guy who knows me too damn well that I fuck sometimes.

[ He breathes a laugh through his nose. ]

That good enough for ya?
heretic_blade: (and kill you if we meet)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-06-24 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō returns the kiss and then pushes Ryouma away as he goes to get up. ]

Not tonight. I'm goin' th' fuck home.