'Course it did. You're my best friend, Izō. We grew up together...
[ he bites his tongue because there's a lot more to that but he's not sure he's ready to say it. what if he scares izō off? ]
I didn't care much about Tosa, but I never stopped carin' 'bout ya after I left.
[ when he'd found out that izō had been taken back to tosa, ryouma had almost followed. nothing else had made him even consider it, fed up as he'd been with the political situation in the domain at the time. it's a lot of regrets now. ]
[ Hearing this doesn't help anything. Izō lets go so he can sit back and stare at the floor. What should he do with this information? It's so complicated...
[ despite blaming the whiskey for his tears he doesn't stop drinking in that silence. ]
That's not true. I bet—.. I bet I coulda done it. I got everyone to see what they needed t' see before...
[ which even as he's saying it he knows is a lie. the old lord had been a thorn in his side all the way to the end. it's nice to entertain the thought. pointless, ultimately more painful, but nice while it lasts. ]
Too many people got hurt 'cause of me. I know I can't make it up t' ya, so I'm just glad when ya come around.
[ it probably looks pathetic. it's a wonder he manages to keep his professional life looking so good while his personal life is an absolute disaster, but he has practise. ]
[ it works, as usual. the same stupid blush. he never expects it to come from izō and he's not remotely confident in whatever this is to assume he's just allowed given their prior encounters. as far as he knows that was just sex regardless of the feelings he might have wrapped up in it all. ]
Ah... well, ya know nothin' would make me happier!
[ with the way things are, it's easily the truth. at least he got knocked off the spiral for now..? ]
Feel like I said that the last time... it's still true!
[ ryouma just laughs and tries to swat izō's hand away, but he eventually just ends up laying down on his side like he likes to and props his head up on his hand. ]
Yeah, yeah. I should maybe try somethin' like sleepin'. Got places t' be before noon t'morrow. How'd that happen..?
[ like an actual job??? it's not like he has to directly report anywhere or anything but he does have to keep appointments. he hates appointments. ]
Oi. Izō. When ya—... when y' explain this—. [ and he gestures between them. ] —t' them, what're ya gonna call it?
[ he's relaxed and not really thinking about it. he thinks he's asking a dumb question and not that it could also sound like he's asking izō to define... this. he laughs again. ]
... Jus' a drunk dumbass ya hang out with sometimes?
[ Izō stares at him long and hard. Is he being serious right now? It's hard to tell. Defining their relationship at all is ... difficult. It's not like his little group tells each other of the ins and outs of their particulars, just who they can expect to see around. That's just the way they do things.
He's drunk enough that he will answer the question instead of telling Ryouma to get bent instead. ]
Yer a fuckbuddy. Friend with benefits. [ He shrugs. ] A guy who knows me too damn well that I fuck sometimes.
[ a non-commital sound and then he rolls over and scoots closer because he's beyond moving around like a normal person and he just wants to be close so he can pull izō down into another, more suggestive kiss than the one he'd been given. ]
S'fine with me. Good t' know ya still get t' fuck me sometimes.
[ he cares about more than that, of course, but he's also stupid. ]
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[ he bites his tongue because there's a lot more to that but he's not sure he's ready to say it. what if he scares izō off? ]
I didn't care much about Tosa, but I never stopped carin' 'bout ya after I left.
[ when he'd found out that izō had been taken back to tosa, ryouma had almost followed. nothing else had made him even consider it, fed up as he'd been with the political situation in the domain at the time. it's a lot of regrets now. ]
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He doesn't say anything, not for a long time. ]
...Better that ya didn't come back.
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That's not true. I bet—.. I bet I coulda done it. I got everyone to see what they needed t' see before...
[ which even as he's saying it he knows is a lie. the old lord had been a thorn in his side all the way to the end. it's nice to entertain the thought. pointless, ultimately more painful, but nice while it lasts. ]
Too many people got hurt 'cause of me. I know I can't make it up t' ya, so I'm just glad when ya come around.
[ it probably looks pathetic. it's a wonder he manages to keep his professional life looking so good while his personal life is an absolute disaster, but he has practise. ]
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...Well, I ain't gonna stop comin' 'round. So get used t' it.
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Ah... well, ya know nothin' would make me happier!
[ with the way things are, it's easily the truth. at least he got knocked off the spiral for now..? ]
Feel like I said that the last time... it's still true!
[ he's drunk. ]
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Yer fuckin' drunk, dumbass... [ He sighs as he settles back. ] Should prolly get my ass gone before it gets too late.
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Yeah, yeah. I should maybe try somethin' like sleepin'. Got places t' be before noon t'morrow. How'd that happen..?
[ like an actual job??? it's not like he has to directly report anywhere or anything but he does have to keep appointments. he hates appointments. ]
Oi. Izō. When ya—... when y' explain this—. [ and he gestures between them. ] —t' them, what're ya gonna call it?
[ he's relaxed and not really thinking about it. he thinks he's asking a dumb question and not that it could also sound like he's asking izō to define... this. he laughs again. ]
... Jus' a drunk dumbass ya hang out with sometimes?
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He's drunk enough that he will answer the question instead of telling Ryouma to get bent instead. ]
Yer a fuckbuddy. Friend with benefits. [ He shrugs. ] A guy who knows me too damn well that I fuck sometimes.
[ He breathes a laugh through his nose. ]
That good enough for ya?
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[ a non-commital sound and then he rolls over and scoots closer because he's beyond moving around like a normal person and he just wants to be close so he can pull izō down into another, more suggestive kiss than the one he'd been given. ]
S'fine with me. Good t' know ya still get t' fuck me sometimes.
[ he cares about more than that, of course, but he's also stupid. ]
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Not tonight. I'm goin' th' fuck home.
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Yeah, yeah. Yer loss anyway~
[ how could anyone resist this man sprawled out drunk on the floor? he's probably going to just sleep this off anyway. ]