( It's funny. Lots of people also said how well Marc was doing after they lost their parents. But... That isn't true, is it? She sees it in the twitch of his fingers, or the set of his jaw when he's finishing his homework. Sees the spikes of irritation when they're alone.
He's just as broken as her, but in different ways. )
so all you're good for is dying?
( Oh, this conversation is gonna come back to bite her in the ass one day. )
Heh, the idea is to accomplish things before that happens, you know?
All I'm saying is I'm not gonna be too scared of dying to do what needs to be done. I'm not looking to end up dead, I just don't worry about when my life might end.
( She wonders, really. What happens when you die in Hell? Can you die in Hell? The assumption is that you can, otherwise why all that shit with Daitengu when she arrived here? )
you better not do anything stupid
( Even if that sentiment sounds eerily like things she thinks herself. Death is a potential outcome of joining the army, she's not stupid enough to think it isn't. But if she does some good, takes care of Marc with whatever money she gets...
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( :| )
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What? It's true!
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you know you're supposed to stay alive for this shit
( Do you tho? She has no idea. It's more like... "you're kinda not the worst person here and I'd be pissed if you died". )
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[ ryouma considers these acceptable risks. ]
I don't plan on dying!
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nobody fuckin plans on dying
usually
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So, as long as I'm around long enough to do what I need to do, it'll be okay.
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so what
it doesn't matter after that
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I dunno! It didn't matter much last time?
[ just casually discussing that time you died once as one does. ]
I went and had other work to do.
I won't be finished just because I helped out with dealing with the turf war, so I can't die yet anyway!
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last time?
( ryOUMA??!?!! )
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Anyway! It's no big deal, but when I was human I died! I finished everything important that I needed to do, so I didn't have any regrets or anything.
No one can control when they die, so I don't worry about it. If I worry, I might hesitate one day when it's important that I don't, you know?
[ IT'S FINE. ]
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and what if there are other important things you should be doing?
what if you die and someone still needs you?
( What button, this didn't press a button??? )
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Like what?
I think I'm only good at fixing big problems anyway.
Everything smaller I always manage to screw up, especially when it comes to people.
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what
where the hell did that come from
( He always seems so... upbeat about shit. )
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what
you think people don't?
( Surely there's someone. Even Kate has Marc. )
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But that's a good thing, isn't it?
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He's just as broken as her, but in different ways. )
so all you're good for is dying?
( Oh, this conversation is gonna come back to bite her in the ass one day. )
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All I'm saying is I'm not gonna be too scared of dying to do what needs to be done. I'm not looking to end up dead, I just don't worry about when my life might end.
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you better not do anything stupid
( Even if that sentiment sounds eerily like things she thinks herself. Death is a potential outcome of joining the army, she's not stupid enough to think it isn't. But if she does some good, takes care of Marc with whatever money she gets...
Isn't that enough? )
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Honestly, I appreciate that you care enough to give me a hard time about it. I won't be too reckless, alright?
[ sorry kate, you have been perceived. ]
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who said that
you're just a good contact
( That was terrible. )
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