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坂本龍馬 sakamoto ryouma ([personal profile] kaientai) wrote2022-03-04 10:08 am
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heretic_blade: (try to project)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-09-07 04:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō comes in without a word and sits across from Ryouma. It's obvious he's been crying -- he's still crying. He can't look at Ryouma properly without feeling deep shame. He's still not strong enough to deal with loss.

He never will be. ]


...Don't ya fuckin' disappear on me, too.

[ Not again. ]
heretic_blade: (stir the limbs across the wrist)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-09-07 02:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Izō resists for all of a few seconds before clinging to Ryouma. He presses his face into his chest in a futile attempt to quiet the choking sobs that wrack his body. There's no dignity here, just a man feeling the acute pain of loss with no way to deal with it. The real fear that everyone else he loves will disappear tears at him like a wild animal, so he has to cling to them while he can. ]

Ya better not! Or I'll kill ya! Ya disappear on me again and I'll fuckin' hunt ya down!

[ His words would be more threatening if his voice wasn't trembling with emotion. A desperate kiss follows his shouting. ]
heretic_blade: (they kill)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-09-07 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He buries his face in Ryouma's neck, sobbing without a care in the world for who might hear him. It's an absolutely pathetic show and a sign of how close Nishitani and Izō had been. The stability he'd built was crumbling again. ]

Jus'...don't. Don't leave me again. Please. I can't handle that! [ Rare honesty as he squeezes Ryouma tighter, repeating the desperate plea from before. ] I'd fuckin' lose it!
heretic_blade: (full possession of a memory)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-09-09 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ryouma's voice and touch are so soothing. He can't stop Izō from crying, but he is helping. Izō clings to him, the sobs giving way to silent crying. Nishitani's words echo in his head. "Promise me you'll live a life worth living and take what you're owed from a cruel fucking world."

Easier said than done. ]


I know I got 'em...'s why I'm fuckin' scared.

[ Despite everything, Ryouma gets the most vulnerable parts of Izō. ]

I woulda died without 'em...Can't imagine livin' without 'em.
heretic_blade: (I am looking out for you)

[personal profile] heretic_blade 2022-09-11 05:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ Izō hadn't considered that. Jigokucho is a hell of a lot better than Hakagemachi had ever been...The problem is that Majima at least had unfinished business. Could he even go back, though...? Izō doesn't know. The only one who can answer that is Majima himself.

It's a nice thought. To be able to stay with his loved ones and what they built together...To have Ryouma close at hand again.

It's selfish, but who cares? He's allowed to be selfish, right? ]


I mean...I don't think Master'll want me back like this. [ A humorless laugh. Would he even be able to go back like this? Would he have all his memories? ] I'd rather stay here...Make sure no one gets hurt, be there with 'em...with ya. Nothin' t' worry 'bout but what's best for th' clan. Ain't a bad idea at all.