Yeah? That's what I'll say the next time ya tell me I'm annoyin' ya. Besides, havin' a lotta work ahead'a me is the story of my life...
[ it's nervous laughter, but any is good under these circumstances. diffuses the tension just enough to be bearable. it's brief because he wants izō to understand that he's taking this seriously. ]
Anyway, I didn't bother sayin' nothin' before 'cause I didn't think I had the right. Been through somethin' like this a few times runnin' into ya somewhere else. I'd remember ya, but it'd always be the first time ya saw me since way back then. [ and all the anger that goes with that. ] I thought keepin' my distance was what ya wanted, 'cause I can't hurt ya if I ain't around.
But I remembered what ya said while I was tryin' t' get ya t' run away from me and realised I got all that wrong too.
[ I jus' got ya back! I ain't leavin' ya for nothin'!! — it all came back when emily's medicine had cleared the curse from his system and he's only thought about those words even more since. ]
I thought you'd just go an' forget me again, so I never bothered sayin' how I really felt. I ain't been fair to ya.
[ he feels like he's repeating himself but maybe he needs to keep repeating it until it sinks in and he stops fucking it up. he's still reluctant to address the part where he's afraid for a few reasons, even though emily had called him on it directly at the time. he doesn't need to get into all that and try to rationalise it all, he just has to say the words. trying to rationalise things is how he ended up making a mess of things to begin with. ]
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[ it's nervous laughter, but any is good under these circumstances. diffuses the tension just enough to be bearable. it's brief because he wants izō to understand that he's taking this seriously. ]
Anyway, I didn't bother sayin' nothin' before 'cause I didn't think I had the right. Been through somethin' like this a few times runnin' into ya somewhere else. I'd remember ya, but it'd always be the first time ya saw me since way back then. [ and all the anger that goes with that. ] I thought keepin' my distance was what ya wanted, 'cause I can't hurt ya if I ain't around.
But I remembered what ya said while I was tryin' t' get ya t' run away from me and realised I got all that wrong too.
[ I jus' got ya back! I ain't leavin' ya for nothin'!! — it all came back when emily's medicine had cleared the curse from his system and he's only thought about those words even more since. ]
I thought you'd just go an' forget me again, so I never bothered sayin' how I really felt. I ain't been fair to ya.
[ he feels like he's repeating himself but maybe he needs to keep repeating it until it sinks in and he stops fucking it up. he's still reluctant to address the part where he's afraid for a few reasons, even though emily had called him on it directly at the time. he doesn't need to get into all that and try to rationalise it all, he just has to say the words. trying to rationalise things is how he ended up making a mess of things to begin with. ]