[ but even as he says it, he knows hizen's right. he sighs. ]
Nothin' gets by ya, huh? I had a pretty clear goal back then, so it was easy t' keep moving towards it. It's different here, so I guess I really haven't had my heart in it lately. Ain't like I'm gonna quit doin' what I'm doin', it's just hard sometimes doin' it all alone.
[ he's ashamed enough to admit it that he can't even look at hizen because he expects to see judgement there. ]
I'm pretty sure I ruined things with Izō for good. Ain't like anything was ever for me but there's gotta be—... [ he shakes his head and makes an effort to keep emotion out of his tone. that's how he scared people off when he doesn't mean to. ] I'm just a little tired, that's all. I jus' need a little time.
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[ but even as he says it, he knows hizen's right. he sighs. ]
Nothin' gets by ya, huh? I had a pretty clear goal back then, so it was easy t' keep moving towards it. It's different here, so I guess I really haven't had my heart in it lately. Ain't like I'm gonna quit doin' what I'm doin', it's just hard sometimes doin' it all alone.
[ he's ashamed enough to admit it that he can't even look at hizen because he expects to see judgement there. ]
I'm pretty sure I ruined things with Izō for good. Ain't like anything was ever for me but there's gotta be—... [ he shakes his head and makes an effort to keep emotion out of his tone. that's how he scared people off when he doesn't mean to. ] I'm just a little tired, that's all. I jus' need a little time.