[ despite blaming the whiskey for his tears he doesn't stop drinking in that silence. ]

That's not true. I bet—.. I bet I coulda done it. I got everyone to see what they needed t' see before...

[ which even as he's saying it he knows is a lie. the old lord had been a thorn in his side all the way to the end. it's nice to entertain the thought. pointless, ultimately more painful, but nice while it lasts. ]

Too many people got hurt 'cause of me. I know I can't make it up t' ya, so I'm just glad when ya come around.

[ it probably looks pathetic. it's a wonder he manages to keep his professional life looking so good while his personal life is an absolute disaster, but he has practise. ]