[ this doesn't feel very good. there's no warm feeling because izō came to him and so he gets to help him feel better. there's just the guilt and shame twisting his insides knowing he's the one who started izō down this path.
ryouma holds izō like that as long as he needs him to. he doesn't judge; if anything it's a struggle not to let his own feelings overwhelm him, so he tries to focus on steadying his breathing. he can be strong and reassuring, like izō used to be for him, and nobody has to know how close he's come to breaking his own promise to himself not to cry anymore. ]
What'd I tell ya..? [ speaking of wanting to sound one way and it coming out another, it would be nice if he could sound calm and not like he's choked up. ] You're stuck with me. All I want is t' by your side, y' know? Nothin' makes me happier...
[ that's the truth. despite everything else going on and things he's said in the past, his words still make him blush a little. ryouma's breath hitches because the last thing he's expecting is to be kissed, but as soon as he recovers from that he kisses izō back with the same desperate energy. they can be pathetic together, if that's how it is. ]
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ryouma holds izō like that as long as he needs him to. he doesn't judge; if anything it's a struggle not to let his own feelings overwhelm him, so he tries to focus on steadying his breathing. he can be strong and reassuring, like izō used to be for him, and nobody has to know how close he's come to breaking his own promise to himself not to cry anymore. ]
What'd I tell ya..? [ speaking of wanting to sound one way and it coming out another, it would be nice if he could sound calm and not like he's choked up. ] You're stuck with me. All I want is t' by your side, y' know? Nothin' makes me happier...
[ that's the truth. despite everything else going on and things he's said in the past, his words still make him blush a little. ryouma's breath hitches because the last thing he's expecting is to be kissed, but as soon as he recovers from that he kisses izō back with the same desperate energy. they can be pathetic together, if that's how it is. ]